Know Thyself.

Interesting topic to explore. I was surfing Pinterest this evening to see what I could pin and give me another bullet on “things to do” list.
I came upon a photo that read “Know Thyself” that listed 25 questions for yourself to journal or ask yourself. It peaked my interest because I find peace in writing and some day it will be fun to look back on and see my answers.

I grabbed my journal and chose just a few questions to answer and I thought it would be perfect for this Mother’s Day to share this all with you as well in hopes that you will take some time for yourself and answer some questions. Maybe one day you too can look back on your answers and smile. Or one day, maybe, your children will collect your journals and read about you with no filters.

I chose to answer the following questions:

Who are you most inspired by? Why?

I am inspired by moms that look organized and have amazing decor styling. I have a few friends on my list that I just look up to when it comes to house decor and organization. I am inspired by moms that have peace in their life. I am inspire by moms that have children that have amazing fashion sense- moms that have amazing vintage styling and keep God in their family life.

 

If life stopped today, what would you regret not doing?

My big regret if my time came would not telling my family I love them more. It comes easier to say and express to the younger kids, but I know I don’t express my love enough to the teens or to my hubby or even to my parents. Not because I don’t love them-  I totally do!! But some reason, I feel like I am more protected of being rejected. No reasons why I would fear that.. maybe I just assume that they know. That is a ridiculous excuse, reason and feeling. I want them all to know that everyday I love them a million times more then they know.

 

What practical skills do you wish you had?

Oh this was a good question. I wish I had more of the “housewife” skills. Better at laundry and the desire to put on a smile and just take care of the laundry, dusting, cleaning. I also wish that I had the desire and patience to garden and get my hands dirty and learn how to live off the earth. I admire the moms that can grow food for their family and don’t mind bugs, dirt, plants and a little elbow grease!

 

What do you love to do for, or give to others (not an object – something from you personally)?

My favorite thing to give others is a handwritten note. I love beautiful stationary and I love to send a letter – just because. I think the art and heart over sending a handwritten note has expired generally in society, but with my favorite pen, some pretty paper and a stamp… and I am happy to send something along!

 

How do you want to be remembered in life?

I want to be remembered for having a loving and giving heart. I want others to remember that feeling they have in their heart from their relationship I had with them. I want to be remembered that I was a faithful child to God.

 

Know Thyself is a post from Misty Sansom where she is trying to help other find their purpose in their life. To read more about her and to see the other journal prompts, check out her website!

As a mom of 5 kids, I know that moms everywhere imagine that they would love to spend Mother’s day all snuggled up in their bed with coffee, comfy pajamas, and the remote to the tv.. and food brought to us on demand. Possibly having the kids super quiet doing something productive with dad and no one leaving a mess behind for us to find and clean the next day. Even though that might seem like I just need a break from “mom”, I know that doesn’t mean I don’t love my family to pieces. In all the chaos, meltdowns, chores, laundry and long to do lists, I still cherish being able to celebrate the reasons why I love being a mom.

I want to document those reasons for you. I want to you have something that you can look back on and hear the laughter of your children or the sweet way they say, “I love you mom”. If you have older children or teenagers, I want to document these moments of you all having fun, being creative or just being together. Because there will be a time in your life where all is calm and quiet and you just crave to hear the word “mom” again.

Motherhood Session from Jax Creations Photography on Vimeo.

 

This Mother’s Day let’s celebrate those moms that are behind the scenes, behind the meltdowns and behind the messy lunches and put them in front of the lens. Glorify them and thank them for all they do, each and everyday. It’s easy to get lost in the chaos that life is.  Let me help you rejoice and be joyful for the wonderful world of motherhood that has been created for you. What better gift then one that can be cherished forever?

 

Motherhood Film Session $450
1 Hour, 15 images, short film

Sessions must be purchased (minimum 50% retainer) by end end of day on Mother’s Day (May 14, 2017). Session must be used by August 14 2017. Sessions are documentary-style and will tell a story, and will take place in or near your home. The focus of the session will be on mom, but other family members are welcome to be included. Must live in the surrounding areas of Spokane Washington, Coeur d’Alene and Sandpoint Idaho. Cannot be modified in any way or combined with any other offer. Additional fees may apply for travel costs.

 

To schedule your Motherhood Film session – please fill out the CLIENT FORM.

 

Happy Mother’s Day to all you amazing women!

Having babies is so amazing. They come with an amazing smell that can’t really be recreated, the fit perfectly on your chest under your chin and as long as you feed, change and love them, they are pretty much happy.

Then those babies turn into children (then teenagers- which is another story for another day). Soccer season is upon us and so are birthdays for all the kids {and myself- *ahem} so, you can imagine that we are stepping into a busy season of life. This year my hubby stepped up to be the soccer coach for the U12 which includes one of our kiddos – so dad is racking up bonus points left and right on the super dad column.

And there is me. Mom Fail. Have you ever felt that way? It stings when your kids are older and they tell you they are unhappy, mad, angry and are in tears and refuse to eat cake and ice cream because you screwed up. So here is what happened.

Last week was the first game of the season for soccer. Earlier that week I spoke with the head lady at parks and rec and asked her for the time this his team was playing. 11am. Awesome. Some reason we never received a print out of the game schedule. She even gave me the link to look at that shows the games. Great. I put all the games right in my calendar with the field numbers AND I even color coded which team belongs to each kid. Super mom being organized. On this particular Saturday, I was celebrating my moms birthday, a older sons birthday, being at the soccer field for the first game, taking 2 kids to a birthday party and another kid to a different birthday party. Well we get to the field, games are all over the place. As we looked around, we couldn’t find his coach or any of the players. Hmmm odd. I checked both my paper and my calendar- both say 11 and its 10:55. I as the group of refs standing around to find his field – go there… still no team or coach. Ask again, she sends me to another field.. Ummm totally wrong age group. Go back again – they tell me hmm well they should be playing on this field right now. No matter how many times I explain that his team is no here they still want to send me to another field. Finally after some investigation – I learned that their team already played…. an hour ago. I was given the wrong schedule. In fact, I was given the schedule for the whole month for the toddlers. Umm last time I checked, 7-8 years old group does not sound like 3-4 years old.  I turn around and my son has his big blue eyes all filled with tears ready to just break the dam open with a blink of an eye. I’m not going to lie, a few cuss words floated around in my head. When I went to tell him I was sorry, he was already walking in a full speed towards the car. When I tried to get close to him, he would just make sure there was a jump rope length between us. My heart was breaking for this kid and I felt terrible. When we got in the car, he decided that he was going to sit in the back, have no eye contact with me and give me the silent treatment. I began then to offer some sort of negotations. Bribery. Oh I was all over the bribery. ” I am so sorry kiddo, so sorry. Can I make it up to you?? How about McDonalds? Ice cream? Hang out with Nana? Toy? I can buy you something for under $20″?? I was pulling anything and everything that I had to offer that day.

His response… A deathly glare from the backseat with the hushed words of ” I am so mad at  you right now. You are making me very sad”.

Ouch! It wasn’t the words the broke my momma heart.. it was those eyes and those tears.. and that skipped breathing sound kids make when they cry hard and long. Gosh, I can not believe I got the time wrong. First game of the season. It was a beautiful sunny day. He had on all his gear, water bottle, his watch to keep time of the game. Crap, now I have to drag him around because I promised the other birthday child I had that I would take him out.

We get to Buffalo Wild Wings and as everyone else was eating, we are all trying our best to offer him something to order. Wings, fries, soda, cake, milkshake? Nope. that boy was MAD and he knew that it was driving me crazy that he wasn’t eating something.

( I have this thing that if you are sad, happy, good day, bad day, celebrating, tired, sick, hurt, lonely, hungry- I want to feed you. It makes me feel needed and loved if I can feed someone)

Everyone at the table tried cheering him up by sharing stories of the time they each missed a game of some sort. We all tried explaining to him that what happened was an honest accident. So I cracked again and asked him what I could do to make him happy. There was silence for a moment and then he tilted his head a little and you could see his wheels were turning. Aw crap – please lord don’t let be something I can’t afford at this moment.

“you know what would really make me happy… I want a four wheeler”

Yes, there was an awkward silence for a moment. But this time instead of cursing inside my head or feel like God was laughing at me waiting to see how I would handle this situation… I started thinking creatively. To buy myself some time, I had him look up photos of what he was thinking on my phone. Yup, sure enough, nothing within that $20 limit I mentioned earlier. Then a little light bulb went off above my head! We have a cousin that I believe had some 4 wheelers. Maybe I could message her to see if they do and see if they could give him a ride on one. Yes! That would be good. So he sat next to me and watched me type – my handsome little soccer player is an incredible reader so he was checking to make sure I was really asking. After sending that message, he finally opened up to eat some ice cream. Ahhh my momma heart is healing now.

I did get a reply that they no longer had 4 wheelers but I was going to try to keep that on the back burner till he came back from his birthday party he was invited to.

So now this leads up to my SECOND mom fail in just a few short days. One of the birthday stops on that Saturday was to Michaels. My birthday boy is an artist so he choose to stock up on markers. Of course I had to keep my end of the deal to my big blue eyed sad soccer player and he got to choose 1 item that was within that budget. And he chose a make it yourself volcano kit. Yippee.

 

Here is a short video I created- watch is HD and make sure you turn up your volume for the full effect of mom failure!

Mom’s Volcanic Fail from Jax Creations Photography on Vimeo.

 

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He was under the impression that there would be this explosion with flowing lava. I kept telling him to read the books. Finally after waiting for the rain to stop and his volcano had dried, we headed outside for his “explosion”. I have no idea why I didn’t think to tell him that there is going to be no EXPLOSION but hey, I am just a mom, what do I know. Maybe he did read the books.

 

 

By this time, our youngest has followed us outside to help but his brother loudly expressed that he was not going to help. Que in the screaming preschooler. I am grateful we live on 5 acres. That’s all I am saying.

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Things started off ok. There were some smiles from at least 1 child. He placed his volcano down and poured in the powder.

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Then he slowly poured in the water….

 

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… and no explosion. In fact it was like watching Alka-Seltzer fizz. And…. cue in the mom fail. Now I had 2 kiddos looking up at me, very disappointment.  They kept looking at me and then back at the tray being very open about how much they did not like what they just saw.

 

This mom was on a roll!

 

* Later, the day that I created the video, I had shown it to my 2 younger boys. Now, the younger one that was so opinionated in the video- he still stood by what he said, BUT, the other blue eyed boy, looked at me and gave me this sweet smile and said, “aww mom, you aren’t a fail. I love you.”

And to me… those few words meant everything.

 

 

 

  1. I love it! This post made me laugh out loud. We have all been there. Thanks for sharing:) - Jackie
  • I love it! This post made me laugh out loud. We have all been there. Thanks for sharing:) - Molly

I am going to try to not get all sappy on you, but do you remember when your baby turned one? If you have not yet reached that stage yet, keep reading so you can be prepared!

It seemed that the fastest year ever in life is the first year of your baby growing. They learn and grow so fast and before we realize it, the sleepy baby that only would sleep when I was awake and treat me like a milk machine.. is now celebrating their first birthday.

This momma and little one came to see me to celebrate her first birthday, but instead of traditional cake, she brought alone a family favorite- DONUTS!

Oh- that sweet sugary doughy smell made me weak in the knees and for that whole time we were together for our session, I seriously considered to be in medical pain just to lick one of those donuts. At times, I have to admit, that yummy gluteny smell, distracted me. My little pudgy fingers wanted to wrap around that donut and hide in the corner to see how fast I could eat it before being caught. But…. I knew that even just one little taste would land me in tummy hell. So, I focused on this sweet little one that celebrated her awesome day with 12 glazed donuts.

Here is a sneak peek into our studio session.

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Big brother was so good as he sat and watched sister eat her way to smiles. He was rewarded with choosing his own donut and in turn, he asked to have pictures of himself too! Gotta love a little one that enjoys the camera!

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Pinks, purples, dresses, painting pictures, playing with momma and loving on sister…. these are things that tell their story.

This beautiful momma welcomed home a new baby girl for all to love and snuggle on and for their storyteller session, I was welcomed into their home for a little sneak peek and introduction of new baby, Miss Hadley.

While baby sister was able to get some rest, her big sister and I spent some time playing with eggs, puzzles, dress up and more! Here is a sneak peek into their storyteller session.

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