Having babies is so amazing. They come with an amazing smell that can’t really be recreated, the fit perfectly on your chest under your chin and as long as you feed, change and love them, they are pretty much happy.

Then those babies turn into children (then teenagers- which is another story for another day). Soccer season is upon us and so are birthdays for all the kids {and myself- *ahem} so, you can imagine that we are stepping into a busy season of life. This year my hubby stepped up to be the soccer coach for the U12 which includes one of our kiddos – so dad is racking up bonus points left and right on the super dad column.

And there is me. Mom Fail. Have you ever felt that way? It stings when your kids are older and they tell you they are unhappy, mad, angry and are in tears and refuse to eat cake and ice cream because you screwed up. So here is what happened.

Last week was the first game of the season for soccer. Earlier that week I spoke with the head lady at parks and rec and asked her for the time this his team was playing. 11am. Awesome. Some reason we never received a print out of the game schedule. She even gave me the link to look at that shows the games. Great. I put all the games right in my calendar with the field numbers AND I even color coded which team belongs to each kid. Super mom being organized. On this particular Saturday, I was celebrating my moms birthday, a older sons birthday, being at the soccer field for the first game, taking 2 kids to a birthday party and another kid to a different birthday party. Well we get to the field, games are all over the place. As we looked around, we couldn’t find his coach or any of the players. Hmmm odd. I checked both my paper and my calendar- both say 11 and its 10:55. I as the group of refs standing around to find his field – go there… still no team or coach. Ask again, she sends me to another field.. Ummm totally wrong age group. Go back again – they tell me hmm well they should be playing on this field right now. No matter how many times I explain that his team is no here they still want to send me to another field. Finally after some investigation – I learned that their team already played…. an hour ago. I was given the wrong schedule. In fact, I was given the schedule for the whole month for the toddlers. Umm last time I checked, 7-8 years old group does not sound like 3-4 years old.  I turn around and my son has his big blue eyes all filled with tears ready to just break the dam open with a blink of an eye. I’m not going to lie, a few cuss words floated around in my head. When I went to tell him I was sorry, he was already walking in a full speed towards the car. When I tried to get close to him, he would just make sure there was a jump rope length between us. My heart was breaking for this kid and I felt terrible. When we got in the car, he decided that he was going to sit in the back, have no eye contact with me and give me the silent treatment. I began then to offer some sort of negotations. Bribery. Oh I was all over the bribery. ” I am so sorry kiddo, so sorry. Can I make it up to you?? How about McDonalds? Ice cream? Hang out with Nana? Toy? I can buy you something for under $20″?? I was pulling anything and everything that I had to offer that day.

His response… A deathly glare from the backseat with the hushed words of ” I am so mad at  you right now. You are making me very sad”.

Ouch! It wasn’t the words the broke my momma heart.. it was those eyes and those tears.. and that skipped breathing sound kids make when they cry hard and long. Gosh, I can not believe I got the time wrong. First game of the season. It was a beautiful sunny day. He had on all his gear, water bottle, his watch to keep time of the game. Crap, now I have to drag him around because I promised the other birthday child I had that I would take him out.

We get to Buffalo Wild Wings and as everyone else was eating, we are all trying our best to offer him something to order. Wings, fries, soda, cake, milkshake? Nope. that boy was MAD and he knew that it was driving me crazy that he wasn’t eating something.

( I have this thing that if you are sad, happy, good day, bad day, celebrating, tired, sick, hurt, lonely, hungry- I want to feed you. It makes me feel needed and loved if I can feed someone)

Everyone at the table tried cheering him up by sharing stories of the time they each missed a game of some sort. We all tried explaining to him that what happened was an honest accident. So I cracked again and asked him what I could do to make him happy. There was silence for a moment and then he tilted his head a little and you could see his wheels were turning. Aw crap – please lord don’t let be something I can’t afford at this moment.

“you know what would really make me happy… I want a four wheeler”

Yes, there was an awkward silence for a moment. But this time instead of cursing inside my head or feel like God was laughing at me waiting to see how I would handle this situation… I started thinking creatively. To buy myself some time, I had him look up photos of what he was thinking on my phone. Yup, sure enough, nothing within that $20 limit I mentioned earlier. Then a little light bulb went off above my head! We have a cousin that I believe had some 4 wheelers. Maybe I could message her to see if they do and see if they could give him a ride on one. Yes! That would be good. So he sat next to me and watched me type – my handsome little soccer player is an incredible reader so he was checking to make sure I was really asking. After sending that message, he finally opened up to eat some ice cream. Ahhh my momma heart is healing now.

I did get a reply that they no longer had 4 wheelers but I was going to try to keep that on the back burner till he came back from his birthday party he was invited to.

So now this leads up to my SECOND mom fail in just a few short days. One of the birthday stops on that Saturday was to Michaels. My birthday boy is an artist so he choose to stock up on markers. Of course I had to keep my end of the deal to my big blue eyed sad soccer player and he got to choose 1 item that was within that budget. And he chose a make it yourself volcano kit. Yippee.

 

Here is a short video I created- watch is HD and make sure you turn up your volume for the full effect of mom failure!

Mom’s Volcanic Fail from Jax Creations Photography on Vimeo.

 

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He was under the impression that there would be this explosion with flowing lava. I kept telling him to read the books. Finally after waiting for the rain to stop and his volcano had dried, we headed outside for his “explosion”. I have no idea why I didn’t think to tell him that there is going to be no EXPLOSION but hey, I am just a mom, what do I know. Maybe he did read the books.

 

 

By this time, our youngest has followed us outside to help but his brother loudly expressed that he was not going to help. Que in the screaming preschooler. I am grateful we live on 5 acres. That’s all I am saying.

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Things started off ok. There were some smiles from at least 1 child. He placed his volcano down and poured in the powder.

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Then he slowly poured in the water….

 

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… and no explosion. In fact it was like watching Alka-Seltzer fizz. And…. cue in the mom fail. Now I had 2 kiddos looking up at me, very disappointment.  They kept looking at me and then back at the tray being very open about how much they did not like what they just saw.

 

This mom was on a roll!

 

* Later, the day that I created the video, I had shown it to my 2 younger boys. Now, the younger one that was so opinionated in the video- he still stood by what he said, BUT, the other blue eyed boy, looked at me and gave me this sweet smile and said, “aww mom, you aren’t a fail. I love you.”

And to me… those few words meant everything.

 

 

 

  1. I love it! This post made me laugh out loud. We have all been there. Thanks for sharing:) - Jackie
  • I love it! This post made me laugh out loud. We have all been there. Thanks for sharing:) - Molly

Happy Valentine’s Day! Roses are Red. Violets are Blue. Sugar is Sweet , check out these adorable photos!

 

Ok, so I am not great at rhyming or poems but I do love a good photo! Over the summer I gathered with some local vendors and some adorable children as we created a unicorn princess party. We twirled, spinned, and danced through the Healing Garden located next to the Bonner General Hospital in Sandpoint Idaho and had a tasty treat of the most beautiful cake, cupcakes and cookies. What a blessing it was to watch these kiddos play through the garden. The flowers were in the fullest bloom, the skies were gently covered with clouds, the dresses were flowy, a special crown that made anyone feel like a queen of royalty.

 

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This dress, Clarice Gown, and floral crown are from Sew Trendy Accessories.

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It is unbelievable but that whole cupcake is edible!! The little pine cone and butterfly are edible!! Chocolate and gelatin.

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These dresses were custom made and hand dyed from JH Gowns. Again, I shared my color choices and theme and she created a dress set that was stunning.

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This stunning hand made crown is from Lovespun Creations. I am so happy and blessed from each vendor that helped make this event and photo shoot the most amazing.

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That most amazing stunning cake was created by Pastry & More in Coeur d’Alene. They are the most amazing talented bakers I have ever met – award winning even. I had gone to them with a small idea and feel of what I wanted to create, but after viewing their work, I knew that as an artist myself, I just wanted to give them my simple thought and let them get creative with it. The cake was inspired from the tapestry “Lady & the unicorn“. With just sharing the colors I was inspired with – the whole session and event was breath taking.

Cookies were made by Milk & Honey Cakery – were delicious yummy treats are shipped directly to your door. And they are so adorable and so yummy. I have never had cookies delivered – that weren’t from my mom, so I was unsure on what to expect, but I was so thrilled when I opened the box and they were perfectly decorated, none of them were broken and they were soft and delicious.

The beautiful dresses the girls got to wear are from Sew Trendy Accessories and JH Gowns.

The floral crown – first, isn’t that the most amazing floral crown?! This handmade crown was created and made by Lovespun Creations. I was able to also share my small little vision and she created this beautiful piece of art. I won’t lie, as soon as it arrived, I walked around the house with it on. Even my  boys were smiling when they saw it.

All the accessories, furniture and props were provided by prop rental – Lucky Prop Co in Sandpoint Idaho and Fresh Design Gallery & Design in Medical Lake, Wa. Both places are like walking into a girls decor heaven. So many things to look at and decorate with.

And beautiful floral display by Sandpoint idaho local florist, Fresh Sunshine Flowers. It was wonderful meeting Jen – she has a local delivery truck that delivers flowers right to you. She is another amazing talented and creative person!

 

I am so looking forward to summer again, not just for the weather or to see another color other than white, but for the fun of children! I love helping create themed parties and events and being able to capture their little moments. I hope if you plan a party this summer you will consider having a silly photographer join in on your fun!

 

A good friend of mine who I have known for years, was sweet enough to capture some behind the scene footage of me working with the kiddos. Thank you Amy Henderson Photography for being there and capturing me with the kids! I also heard from a little bird that Amy is opening a studio this summer – so all you local Sandpoint peps, keep your eye out for her new place soon!

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2015, and honestly as much as it was crazy and stressful, it was also the best time our family has made. 2015 was the year I was most sick- not being to make it out of bed most days, more medical tests that showed I was fine, but still the weight kept falling off along with my hair. At this point, I would not be surprised if I ended up needing a wig to cover my miss shaped head. This year also gave me lots of wonderful memories, both in my personal life and in my business.

Our lease in our Colorado house was coming to a close and long story short, we had to make a decision on what we were going to do- find another home to rent in that area or and trust in the Lord to take us back to Idaho.

Idaho won! The struggles are still here in our every day life, but that summer I did something that I haven’t done in a very long time. I gave myself a sabbatical. Man, how I needed that break. I focused fully on my family and accepted with arms open wide on the plans that God had for us. There were some moments where I felt blinded and tried to control something, but again, no one has more knowledge than the good Lord above. It was like he had to grab my shoulders every once in a while and put me back in His direction.

Our long journey  from Colorado to Idaho/Washington was long but very adventurous. We planned to make this chaotic moment into a family trip. And it was- it was wonderful. We packed up our house and put our little of what we had, packed to the moon on my hubbys trailer. Looking at our lovely moving contraption, you could hear just very slightly the theme song from ‘Sanford & Sons’. The trip was very long but we did manage to stop a little to take in the scenery.

During our move, none of the houses that we tried renting came through so we decided to stay for a while at my sister in laws- which- funny story- when hubby and I got married we had to move in with her until we were able to find a place. Here is where it gets a little creepy but oh-so-cool. She was living in this house in Kennewick- large enough for her family and mine. Over the years, she moved away from that house as did we. But late 2015 took us back to the beginning- were we all started as a family.  My sister in law moved back into that old house and due to circumstances, we too ended back in that house- all together. To me, I believed that God was showing us things that we forgot, like being present and trusting in Him. I knew this was going to be the best time for me emotionally that will benefit both my family and my business. I try to usually make a bucket list for the summer that the kids can look at and get a little excited, but with so many things unknown, I treated every day (ok, most of the days) like it was a new adventure.

We camped 1 night at Jerry Johnson Hot Springs which included a hike up the mountain and a little swim in natures natural hot spring. It was breath taking walking up there and taking all in. Really the only thing you could do was just to take a deep breath with your eyes wide open. Thankfully, we did not see any wild animals because this girl would have freaked out! I kept making the kids clap sticks together and yell “BEAR” – I saw that on TV once and there was no way I was going to let our little tribe walk quietly in those woods! On that particular day I was also celebrating my birthday. We met up with my uncle and his wife and we found a campsite that fit all of us there. We shared stories, walked over to the bar to listen to live music and just enjoyed the blessings of the day. It was a great birthday – something that was really needed.

 

Back at my sister-in-laws house, the boys enjoyed running through the sprinklers, we picked fruit from the fruit tree, made cobbler, go a membership to the local gym where we had pool days and sun. Our neighbor has farm animals so the kids would every once in a while go help feed the cows, chickens and horses. My favorite thing was sitting at the back fence and talking to the cows. They were so peaceful and their eyes felt like they had stories to share. The sunsets in Kennewick were incredibly beautiful and I would sit outdoors watching it until my eyes started aching from the allergies. Worst time with allergies that year, but it was all worth it.

 

I entertained the kids with trips to Sandpoint to visit family and friends and soaked up the Northern Idaho beauty lake side on the beach. It was so fun watching the boys just be wild and free. Some other fun things we did to keep the focus on family, we had an ice cream sundae pig party, blueberry picking, paint fight, and went a little crazy as I dragged out a mattress to the front yard and let the boys jump until they couldn’t jump anymore.

To help keep my focus on my sabbatical, I had a magazine that I carried with me no matter where we were. This magazine inspired me and reminded me that I love the simple things in life and somehow I buried it deep within me. I dealt with anger in parts of 2015 due to always getting sick with my tummy issues and not finding an answer, not being able to find a house to move into, the struggle and worry of what I was going to do for school for the kids. But every time I opened up that magazine, there was always a reminder that God has a plan for me, all I need to do is trust in Him.  As the summer was coming to a close, we did actually find a house that was great and lots and lots of land to explore. Although I stayed up on my porch because I am not a true outdoor girl. I love looking at it but hiking trails I have never been through- I believe there is a creature out there that would eat me up.

We did do one final trip as a family before school started and this was such a needed adventure. Hubby told me to pack up kids clothes for 5 days and meet him at the van in 20 minutes and our adventure would begin. I had no idea what or where we were going but I was all in. As we were leaving town, the kids would not stop asking what we were doing and hubby finally broke and told them we were going to go look at BIG trees. The kids reaction was priceless. “Trees?? we are going to drive to see TREES?” They kept saying “but we have trees in our yard, why do we have to drive for so long to see trees?” The kids did not realize how awesome it was going to be driving through the Redwoods, but I sure did and I was very happy. And just like we thought, they were all very excited to see these big trees. It took my breath away standing next to these trees, wondering how they could stand so strong and so beautiful. After a while of driving and exploring, we found a campsite and made camp for the night. As the kids slept, hubby and I sat under the stars talking and playing card games. It was lovely being able to not be distracted with city noise, tv’s, phone’s etc.  The next day we traveled the coast line, stopping anywhere we thought was eye catching.  The first most memorable spot was just aside of the highway a place called, The Arch. We parked at the vistor parking/potty area and noticed there was a trail, so we followed it to see where it would lead us. It took us to a cliff where once again it felt like God was saying hello to us. Just breathtaking. A few more steps on the path and there you could see the Arch. A massive boulder that sat in the ocean but the ocean carved that boulder into an Arch. It doesn’t matter to me how many times I can see nature and things made in God’s glory- it is and will always be breathtaking! As we headed back to the car, hubby decided to get a little adventurous and climbed over the fence and wiggled his way closer to the edge of the cliff. Um, yeah, so… I am afraid of heights, especially over water- especially right near a cliff. But I too wanted to crazy, so I followed my hubby with a death grip and sat there for a moment looking over the edge. Scary for sure, but there was a sense of freedom too- just looking out over that water. That moment came to a screaming halt when the kids started to get worried that we would fall. What a way to kill the mood then your kids on the other side of the fence screaming at you. That was probably the moment that my panic attack started rolling in. How terrible would that have been if one of us slipped and fell. There was nothing you could do. I quickly scaled back up that cliff and back over the fence. Adventure complete and back on the rode we went.

The last adventure on this road trip was to a lighthouse that I saw on a map. I don’t know why I am fascinated with them, but they spark my curiosity and it would be fun for the kids to see one too. And this was a very popular scenic spot for lots of visitors. Once we reached the top for the tour, that is just about the time where the kids all started to melt into the I-DON’T-WANNA-GO-SEE-THIS-ANYMORE. Well, this momma is seeing it and they are all going to like it. And in the end, they did enjoy it. After the tour we headed back to the car and let the kids roam free on the beach for a little.

But hubby had one more stop for us that would be the best of the best moments of the trip…..

Sunset on the beach. And what a perfect evening he choose. Lincoln City Beach. For the first half of the sun setting, I enjoyed watching the kids play in the water and in the sand. Watching them feel free was a gift- a blessing. That memory of that day, I pray will forever be in my heart and head. I craved to see that image and to be able to be in that moment with my family and witnessing the sun set in all it’s glory, well, it was….. breath taking!

 

This sabbatical was the reset I needed in my life. It was a fresh start and a new beginning. As we settled in back home, I mentally trashed all my negative thoughts about what I didn’t have in both a personal way and in a business way. I attended an amazing photography class, I had some awesome moments with my family and now I am ready to take on 2016 in a more powerful way. I have been hesitant in the past to stay true to me but I am proud of my vision and proud to still be able to photograph anything I desire. I am going back to my heart and the meaning of why I do photography.

I promise to not forget my family. I promise to give more to others. I promise that I am going to work stronger in community verses competition. I promise to see each day as a blessing, no matter what cloudy storm comes rumbling through. I promise to show anyone in my life that they are important to me. I promise to keep learning and stretching and perfecting my vision.

 

To the future clients of 2016, I look forward in capturing your every day beauty both in photographs and also in video. Let me help you celebrate this new blessing you have in your life. To the clients of the past, you are a part of my life that helped me grow and it is always an honor to watch your little ones grow up to be your big ones, in front of the camera. Keep collecting moments of life.

To all my past clients and to the future- I challenge you this year to get those photos off your phone and computer and get your images printed either for your wall or in an album. Memories don’t do well all stuffed in a place we forgot. If you have a family full of kids, a fun idea is to make a month that is the spotlight for that child. Get some tiny clothes pin, print out as many photos of your child that month, some string and find a place in your home where you can display that child of the month. Make them feel special! And in the middle of all of that- do not forget yourself. You are beautiful and loved and perfectly made!

Celebrate YOU!!

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  1. Such beautiful captures of your family. Isn't it amazing to sit back and watch God work in your life!?! Colorado's loss was Sandpoint, Idaho's gain and they are so lucky to have a photographer as talented as you. :) - Jackie
    • Thank you so much Stephanie!! I am very happy to be back "home"! - Jackie
  2. Beautiful photographs of your family! What an amazing idea to take a trip without knowing where you were going. Cheers to a wonderful 2016! - Jackie
    • Thank you Danielle. It was a lot of fun. Simple adventures! - Jackie
  • Thank you Danielle. It was a lot of fun. Simple adventures! - Jackie
  • Thank you so much Stephanie!! I am very happy to be back "home"! - Jackie
  • Such beautiful captures of your family. Isn't it amazing to sit back and watch God work in your life!?! Colorado's loss was Sandpoint, Idaho's gain and they are so lucky to have a photographer as talented as you. :) - Stephanie Rubyor
  • Beautiful photographs of your family! What an amazing idea to take a trip without knowing where you were going. Cheers to a wonderful 2016! - Danielle J.

Funny thing happened the other day. I totally had a mommy moment. Not in the “normal” way where I forgot my kids name as I was trying to yell at him, or in the way I would feed them all cereal because I was burned out…. this was a new experience – in a store!

My son- the adventurous, wild, crazy, fun-loving and willing to try it all- his favorite shoes have entered into the phase of retirement. He loved these shoes! They were the ones he climbed trees with, learned how to break dance with, slide down the halls of any room he could get into, skateboarding to soccer to playing with the scooter- these shoes did it all with this amazing child of mine.

We headed out the to store and I was glad to be able to fit this growing child with something that would hopefully last him longer than 1 season, but as we were checking out, the lady at the register asked if I wanted to put the old shoes in the box to throw them away. I stood there… and hesitated. I could not answer her. My son looked up at me with his big blue eyes and mischievous smile – “NO! Um no please, I will just take them home.” Seriously, did I just tell this lady that I will take these ratty- stinky shoes back home with me?!

As we got back into the car I realized that his shoes meant something to me and it got me really emotional. When I looked at these shoes- I didn’t seem the holes or the soles that were rubbed away- I saw LIFE! My child’s life! I flashed back to every flip, run, smile, that he had in the grass, in the fields and on the road.

My kids are getting older and sadly my time for having more babies has passed – these dirty old shoes was my link to my memories and I just couldn’t throw it away.

So as the crazy mom that I hope my kids will one day understand, I made my son put on those shoes for one last time. After he took them off, I wrapped them up and tucked them away in my cedar chest of memories.

This is the story of a boy and his shoes!

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  1. So special - love this! - Jackie
  2. Isn't it amazing the silly things that get our soft spot? He will treasure these photos! - Jackie
  3. wonderful! Motherhood is a pile of things you never thought you would say or do and I love you for this post!! - Jackie
  4. Thanks for making me cry!!! :) - Jackie
  5. I love this story! Sometimes it's the little things that mean so much. - Jackie
  6. This is so whimsical! The shoes tell a fantastic story of a kid--love how you captured this! - Jackie
  • So special - love this! - Melissa
  • Isn't it amazing the silly things that get our soft spot? He will treasure these photos! - Sarah H
  • wonderful! Motherhood is a pile of things you never thought you would say or do and I love you for this post!! - Keziah
  • Thanks for making me cry!!! :) - Tara
  • I love this story! Sometimes it's the little things that mean so much. - Jamie
  • This is so whimsical! The shoes tell a fantastic story of a kid--love how you captured this! - Jennie

Jax Creations Photography, colorado baby photogreapher, seattle, Creative LiveWOW!

Wow….. I think even though I have so many words in my head and have dealt with so many emotions…. I am speechless! Although in this blog post, you will probably laugh at how many words I do actually say!

If you follow me on facebook, I posted a few weeks ago that I was chosen to be a part of Kelly Brown’s class over at Creative Live in Seattle. Kelly owns Little Pieces Photography which I have been a follower of her for years. I use her actions- which I HIGHLY recommend. Anywho…. I submitted to be a part of the live audience and to my surprise I was one of the 12 that was chosen. Such an incredible surprise and shock. I had posted a Go Fund Me account and because of family, friends and clients- they all made this dream come true for me. I packed my bags and headed at Seattle for a 5 day bootcamp!

What I did not expect was incredible connection, friendships and reality check.

Before I left, my hubby and I had sat down and had such an amazing conversation about my business and photography. I am a very emotional person- I thrive off of how people feel ( in the good ways ) – when I take a photo it must contain a story, a relationship, a detail, or emotion in some way. When I work with clients, I want to make sure I produce technically good images but what I stress out the most is will I be able to make them FEEL what I see or what I feel. Will I be able to have them look at their image of their baby with the peach fuzz shoulders to the point they remember how soft it felt. That image where mom is snuggling her baby under her chin, yes it is beautiful but I want them to be able to look at it and remember how beautiful their baby smelt and that feeling of their hair brushed against their cheek. Every day we experience special moments with our kids, in either the way they crinkle their nose at certain times, smile with those first few baby teeth come in, big round eyes and a serious face…. I want my clients to feel like I am giving them more than just a session- I honestly want to be able to just capture this special moment so they can remember it. It all goes so fast!

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  1. Nice post! So lucky to be there! ;) - Jackie
  2. This was such a joy to read. Made me think back of our time at CreativeLive in Seattle. Thank you for sharing this with us. I am so glad to have met you and I think you are such an amazing baby photographer!!! I wish I was closer to Colorado!! - Jackie
  • Nice post! So lucky to be there! ;) - Sarah
  • This was such a joy to read. Made me think back of our time at CreativeLive in Seattle. Thank you for sharing this with us. I am so glad to have met you and I think you are such an amazing baby photographer!!! I wish I was closer to Colorado!! - Dawn